Funny it is because despite my situation, I and two of my office mates, Ate Alexa and Ate Licette, still decided to do some stuff buying in SM Supermarket. (I bet you know what it is to shop, right?Haha!) While on our way to Megamall, I was caught by a rhema (or a revelation, sudden thought from the Holy Spirit): You cannot move forward until you are healed.
I can see Ate Alexa and Ate Licette walking so fast, and I see myself as someone who's so ill, struggling to go to the point where they're at. It's hard for me to move forward because something's wrong in me. Something is hurting. That's why I was almost left behind. And it's really frustrating, annoying and irritating to feel that! I kept declaring that it's all in the mind and I can make it.
Is it possible that you and other people are on the same journey, same path, same direction but the others are moving forward so fast, going to the next level, reaching a new dimension, going up, but at the same time, you're struggling your way up? Yes. Why? Because they are healed and you're not.
If one of your feet is hurting, then it'll obviously slow you down to where you want to go. Same with your life, if your heart is hurting, if there is a spiritual bondage or wound that's chaining you from the freedom that God wants to give you, then you must be healed.
Your wounds -- be it physical, emotional and spiritual -- can only be healed by the blood of Jesus. Healing from the inside is always available for you. Why bear so much pain if you can be healed? Just ask of it.
Sometimes, oh no, most of the time, it's necessary to feel the pain. Pain will stretch your faith. It will test your character. And as always, you have to pass the test. Each test you pass will make you a better person. Each test you fail will make you want to be a better person.
Until you're completely well, you can't do the things that God wants you to do. But one thing you must do, you need to let go and let God do the healing.
