FAITH OVER FACTS

I am so confused right now.


      I've really decided to enroll in this semester without the assurance of having support for my daily expenses, and so I tried applying for work but they are telling me and encouraging me to really choose one- between work and study. But this is what I really planned- to continue my study and have a work. But this is the thing, I can't get hired because they don't think it's helpful for me to do both. Yea, I'm not a superwoman. I need to prioritize one thing, it's either I will stop schooling to work and save money and go back to school after about half a year, or I will risk going to school without any visible support and make lots of absences. But the thing is, I am already enrolled! And wow! I know it's an expression of faith right here. :)


     The intervention of God is really my only hope now.. that He will give me favor and He will do something about my situation, to really give me an opportunity to work and at the same time, study.

LORD, I STILL HOLD ON TO YOUR PROMISE. LET YOUR WILL BE DONE. :D

You Made Me Live Again

TRULY! NOTHING STAYED THE SAME WHEN GOD CAME INTO MY LIFE. :)

ONE PART IS, AS I AM MUSICALLY INCLINED, I REALLY HAD STRUGGLE ON SECULARISM, ESPECIALLY IN MUSIC, BECAUSE I WAS USED TO IT. YEA, YOU GET PLEASURE IN IT, BUT IT DOESN'T REALLY BENEFIT YOUR SOUL. :)

BUT LISTENING TO LOVE SONGS OR THE LIKES, I HAVE NOW A NEW PERSPECTIVE. THOSE SONGS, CAN BE LOVE SONGS TO GOD, :) ONLY IF YOU ALWAYS THINK ABOUT HIM. :) 

TAKE A LOOK AT THIS ONE:

[You can pause first the music out there on the right and try to play this link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LD1WJ7U0Xlc
and listen to the depth of your heart. :) It's an old song, but it's beautiful. n_n ]

YOU MADE ME LIVE AGAIN BY JANET BASCO

I was down and out and feelin' so low,
You took my hand and eased my mind.
I was astray, You showed me the way..
And now I finally found my home in You.

I still recall the times I've been through,
Confused, and I didn't know what to do.
I almost gave up but You gave me hope.You've made me strong as the days went on,You made me live again.

I was lost in the dark
With my lonely, broken heart
Then You came along,You took me home,
And made me Your own.

You were always there to lend a helping hand,
When good friends were hard to find
When things went wrong, You made them right.
You've made my days so bright.You made me live again.

Now look at me,Yes, a different me!

Back on my feet again
I'm not afraid to face the world again.
'Cause You taught me how to be strong.

YOU MADE ME LIVE AGAIN.

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PARANG KANINA LANG KASI NAGVIVIDEOKE KAMI, TAPOS KINANTA 'TO NG AKING KAIBIGAN NA SI BERON. :)

WOW! IBA TALAGA KAPAG SUGAPA KA NA KAY LORD.. IBA KA NA MAG-ISIP. ALL IS FOR HIM! :))

THIS SONG REALLY SPEAKS TO ME HOW JESUS LIFTED ME UP AND GAVE ME ALL THAT I NEED, HOW HE CHANGED ME, HOW GREAT IS THE LORD. :)

WOW.. IT IS INDEED A LOVE SONG TO HIM.. NAKAKAKILIG!! n_n

Thank you Mrs. Susan Younghusband!

Thank you Mrs. Susan Younghusband,

    

 ..for being an instrument of hope.

Thank you,

     ..for being an instrument of change to my mother.

Thank you,

     ..for being a good friend to her, for encouraging her to work hard and persevere in life.

Thank you,

     ..for being an instrument of blessing to my family, and to me, especially.

And thank you,

     ..for sharing a bit of your life to us through my mother.

I am grateful that God used you, chose you, even for a short time, to be those instruments!

The door may close for now, but He will open a new window.

Bigger.

Wider.

Greater.

Thank you Mrs. Susan Younghusband!

Ordinary yet Extraordinary Day

Isang taon na pala kaagad nagdaan.

Parang dati lang, excited na excited ako mag-18.

Alam mo na, kapag 18, ayan na!

Punta dito, punta doon; sabak dito, sabak doon.

You know! ^^

Pero actually, hindi naman total transformation ang maging isang 18 years old para sa'kin. Parang 16, 17 lang din. :D

Eh ngayon, 19 na 'ko!

Isang tungtong na lang, bente na ko!

Oh, so anong nangyari ngayong araw na 'to?

Isa siyang ordinary to some but extraordinary for me.

Ang ordinary kasi para sa'kin, eh 'yung conducting party, handaan, gimik, chuva ek ek.

But today...

I woke up at about seven in the morning.

I rushed the homework drawing ng pinsan ko kasi nga aalis ako ng maaga.

I did my devotion, :) then, fixed myself.

And so, I arrived late sa first Post-Encounter class ko at PICC.

After that, I attended the second service of the church.

May invite ako! Yey! ^_^

Then, nagcellgroup kame.

Tapos, it was almost 5pm, pero naalala ko yung prayer chain, pero naalala ko din yung midterm!

But I told myself, sabi nga sa preaching kanina, what is your priority?

Ang pagiging future journalist o ang pagiging disciple? :D

Ahaaaaaaaaaa.... ^^

Siyempre ang pagiging disciple. Kaya SIYA ang priority ko.

I attended the prayer chain, for the first time, and what we did there was pray for all areas/aspects for TWO HOURS! Gutom na gutom pa naman na ako nun.

But, after that, natawa na lang ako kasi hindi ko naramdaman yung gutom na 'yun in two hours.

Imba! I had the opportunity to pray for the whole world! :D Isipin mo na lang 'yung walang mintis na pag-utter ng words from your heart para makapagpray.

Haha! Tsaka lang nagvibrate ang tiyan ko! ^^

Ni hindi ko na nga nagawang i-check ang cellphone ko kung may mga bumati sa'kin. :)

Ang sarap lang sa pakiramdam. ü

In short,
I spent and celebrated this day with GOD and with Godly people. :))

And now I AM A DISCIPLE happened to be a Journalism student. :)


I LOVE YOU LORD!
Thank You for loving me first! ^_^ *so sweet*

That's a wrap!

EDFAT 2 Photoshoot

Model: John Azada

Location: PUP Main

ENTIRE

DETAIL

FRAME

ANGLE

TIME

See other photos at:

That's A Wrap! Album

-Jane Palma

To the E, To the D, To the F-A-T!

A good snapshot stops a moment from running away.

~Eudora Welty

Okay! So, down to our first assignment in photography, do the EDFAT thing girl!

Entire, Detail, Frame, Angle, and Time.

I've been thinking of what subject or setting would be perfect for this.

Nature? Parang hindi masyado. Common na yun eh.

A person? Parang boring, dead ang dating.

Eh kung busy street kaya? Hmn, pwede diba? Let's give it a try.

So, habang binabaybay namin ng aking sisteret ang mga kalye mula Pureza, hanggang kung saang parte man kami ng Maynila makarating, doon ko napagtanto na..

sa araw araw na pagkuha ng litrato ng mga tao, nakahiga man o nagpipicture sa salamin, gravity shot man ito o mas kilala bilang "jejemon shot," men, when you get to the real thing, hindi pala 'to ganung kadali o kasimple. You have to open your eyes widely, dahil sa mga bagay na nakikita mong panget noon, o hindi mo napapansin, may madidiscover ka pa lang maganda na pwede mong i-capture. Matatagpuan mo rin sa sarili mo na, mas nakakakita ka na ngayon, hindi ka na bulag sa ibang bagay. Ayos!

Okay, mahirap siya huh! Sa pagkuha ng ENTIRE, isipin mo yung kabuuan ng subject mo, o yung setting mismo, anong lawak ng kukuhaan mo, basta yung entirity! At dito ako nauwi.

'Yan ay sa crossing sa Mendiola. Ang mga motoristang 'yan ay nanggaling sa kahabaan ng Recto papuntang Sta. Mesa. Where do you think I was while shooting this one? HAHA.



Pagdating sa DETAIL, you must emphasize the subject, yung tipong pagtingin mo, sila lang talaga makakakuha sa atensiyon mo, dapat walang epal. 

Ayan sila kuya manong, antaray oh, ano kayang pinagchichikahan nila? Kitam, date dinadaan daanan lang naten ang mga ganyan, pero ngayon, ginagawa ng model. Hahaha. Ang maganda kasi dyan, parang may sinasabi ang litrato. There is joy in reading newspaper! Haha. But yeah, it's good to read newspaper. So, nasa kanila ang focus ng picture. Yung ibang details sa likod, di naman masyadong epal diba? :)


How about FRAME? Dyan pumapasok ang  Rule of Thirds. Isipin mo may grid ang camera mo na 3x3, hindi mo dapat ginigitna ang subject mo, awkward ang labas teh. (May masabi lang.) Sa framing, you must consider kung ilang inches ang spacing mula sa subject. Kailangan may space. Hindi mo naman pwedeng isakto yung frame sa cap ni Kuya at the top, ganun din sa paa sa bottom, at pati sa sides. (May masabi lang ulet.)

Siya si Kuyang karpintero, tama ba? Ahahaha. Hindi sadya yan. By the time na kinuhanan ko siya, saktong paglingon niya. Perfect! :)


Sumunod naman ang ANGLE. Honestly, parang wala akong nakuhang pwedeng i-classify as angle. Kaya I just browsed my old files at eto ang pumasa sa verdict ni Kuya Judel Arugay. Ahaha.

Na-showcase ko naman ang kagandahan ng bulaklak na ito mula sa baba paitaas na anggulo diba? :)


The last one is TIME. Chase the action! Capture the movement perfectly!

This train is from Recto station to Legarda station passing through the curve path sa crossing ng Mendiola. Hulaan niyo na lang talaga kung nasaan ako niyan, same as where I was when I shot the Entire. :))



AT AYAN ANG AKING EDFAT, FAILED EDFAT? KAILANGAN KASI ISANG SUBJECT LANG EH! AHAHAHAHA! It's okay, napakasayang experience at new learnings talaga.


The kind of camera doesn't matter. Nasa pagkuha 'yan ng kumukuha. :))


[Special thanks to Mr. Jomar (forgot the surname), production manager of ABS-CBN Mobile News team. Inakyat ko ang tuktok ng van ng ABS para lang makuha ang shots ng entire at time. Haha. Nawindang ako, afraid of heights eh.]

There will be times when you will be in the field without a camera.  And, you will see the most glorious sunset or the most beautiful scene that you have ever witnessed.  Don't be bitter because you can't record it.  Sit down, drink it in, and enjoy it for what it is!  ~DeGriff

Sulat sa Hangin

Sa mga oras na ito, alam mo kayang naiisip kita? Kung minsan ba, eh naiisip mong iniisip kita?


Malalim na naman ang gabi. Sa saliw ng mga tugtugin sa radyo ngayon, lalo akong dinuduyan pabalik sa panahong...

NARIYAN KA PA.

Nung panahong una tayong nagkakilala, hindi ko na maalala kung sino ang unang nakipag-usap sa ating dalawa. Simpleng bati at ngiti lang ang binigay natin noon sa isa't-isa. Para sa akin, noon, ikaw ay pangkaraniwan lamang. Walang dating at katulad lang ng marami.

Nakalimutan ko na rin kung paano tayo naging malapit sa isa't-isa.

Siguro, dahil na rin sa mga kaibigan natin.

Pero ang hindi ko malilimutan, ay ang kakaiba sa pagiging malapit natin.


Masasabi kong ito ay espesyal.
Kung ano man ang mayroon sa atin noon, ay WALANG MAY NAKAKAALAM NA ESPESYAL.


Hindi ko alam kung sino o ano ka para sa'kin. Hindi ko rin alam kung matatawag ba kitang kaibigan. Dahil sa kabila ng pagiging malapit natin, ay para ka pa ring isang estranghero, patuloy na nagmamatyag sa akin. Hindi man malinaw sa akin kung bakit mo ito ginawa, alam ko na may magandang dahilan. Hindi mo lang sinabi.

Nung mga panahong 'yon, hindi ka na katulad ng marami. Iba ka. Ibang-iba.

Hindi ko lang sinabi.

Nariyan ka,

nag-aalala, nagpapasaya, nagpapahalaga. Hinintay kong sabihin mo ang dahilan. Hindi mo naman sinabi.

Dahil sa mga ginawa mo, hindi ka nabigong iparamdam sa akin na.. MAHALAGA AKO...

SA'YO.

Tama bang naramdaman ko 'yun?

Sana naging malinaw sa'kin ang lahat.

Sana naging malinaw ang dahilan ng pagdating mo, maging ng pag-alis mo.. biglaang pag-alis mo. Kase, hindi ko inasahan 'to. Nakampante kasi akong hindi ka aalis, umasang lagi ka lang nandyan. Kung ano man ang dahilan, hindi ko na inalam mula sa'yo. Maaari ngang.. nagsawa ka, napagod.

Iba ka, pero pinakita ko sa'yong katulad ka lang nila.

Masaya ako, ngunit hindi ko man lang nasabi ito sa'yo.

Mahalaga ka, sana naiparamdam ko.

Nanatili akong tikom ang bibig; pigil sa mga salitang makakapagsabi ng tunay kong nararamdaman, dahil natakot ako. Natakot masaktan gaya ng iba. Naging duwag. Mahina. 

Kaya ngayon, pinapaniwala ko ang sarili kong ayos lang naman ang lahat. Ako ang nagkamali. Ako ang hindi nagbigay.

Mayroon naman kasing tamang daan na binigay ang Diyos ngunit tayo ay lumihis at sinunod ang mga gusto natin. Sumusunod lang naman ang buhay sa mga kilos natin eh. Bawat galaw at salita natin ay may kaakibat na resulta. Pangit man o maganda, depende sa kung ano ang ibinigay natin.

Kung ginawa ko kaya ang nararapat, nandyan ka pa?

Kung alam mo lang siguro, maaaring mas masaya pa tayo. 

Pero hindi dito nagtatapos ang lahat. Pwedeng magkita ulit tayo o may makilala tayong para sa atin. Kung ano man doon, sana matutunan na nating panindigan at ipaglaban. (haha.)

"A million times or more I thought about you

The years, the tears, the laughter, things we used to do

Are memories that warm me like a sunny day

You touched my life in such a special way

Old friend
It’s so nice to feel you hold me again
No, it doesn’t matter where you have been
My heart welcomes you back home again.."

A Daughter Once Dreamed Her Father Was Talking To Her

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"I'm sorry, I'm not there,

To do such things for you,

as your father.

Haven't done those duties

that should be done up to now.

How stupid am I?

For I have left you,

without saying goodbye."

"Don't worry my father,

 I have already accepted. That since the day I was born, I don't have someone like you, someone as my own, to call Daddy or Papa. It's sad, but what am I gonna do? Who should be sorry for himself, for we don't exist in each others' world. I don't know the real story, but I don't wanna hear anymore. I don't know where you are now, But I don't wanna search for you anymore. I didn't even see your face. Are we alike? For even a single picture, there's none. My father, are you still alive? Do you remember me? Please, do remember me."

"I am sorry, I'm not there,

to be at your side

to be your loving father,

responsible and supportive,

thoughtful and caring.

You just don't know but

I also wonder who you are.

I wanna know and hear a lot about you.

Don't worry, I'm okay.

I'm here, just here, always here.

And I do,

I remember you."

"Well, thanks my father. I'm also okay, as my world keeps revolving without you. Where every time the subject is you, I always try to deny that I'm hurt. But what you don't know is the opposite. I'm hurt. I'm incomplete. I do feel bad, yes. And I want to cry, just like now, because you're not here, and I don't have you."

"I am sorry, I'm not there,

but don't get too emotional.

Life is really unfair,

so we must deal with it.

I know you're hurt,

I can feel the pain.

I am sorry, I'm really sorry.

Please hear me sayin',

I love you."

"The hardest part is facing this reality, that no matter what, we won't see each other. For honestly speaking, I don't wanna find a way-- a way for us to meet, a way which will lead me back to you.
 I can't say I missed you, because we haven't met. Instead, hear me sayin' too, I love you. And you will always be a part of me, a special piece of me."

"Though there's no existence between the two of us,

I'll carry you through my heart."

"I accept your apology.

 I know, everything has its reason.

 And this is all His will.

 As I'm always saying,

 it just so happened that you're not here,

 but God gave me different people of my life, showered me with love,

 for me to be strong and contented."

Para Sa'yo ♥♥♥

Sa ating kolehiyo,

ay matunog ang iyong pangalan;

Mga babae'y nagkakandarapa,

ikaw ay hinahangaan,

Sa una'y nagtataka,

ano ba ang meron ka?

Na sa tuwing darating ka,

para bang may sikat na artista.

Dumating ang araw na ika'y nakilala,

Hindi ko inakalang kakaiba ang madarama.

Nangungusap mong mga mata,

At ngiti na kay ganda,

Nabuhay ang dugo ko,

Tingin ay di na naialis pa.

At lalo akong natunaw,

nang ika'y magsalita.

Malamig mong boses,

ngayo'y namalas na.

Hindi ka nagdal'wang isip

na ibahagi ang iyong sarili.

Nanliit tuloy ako,

wala ng nasabi.

Mula noon,

ay nag-iwan ka sa aking isipan

Nananaginip nang gising,

naiisip ka kahit saan;

Nangangarap na balang araw,

tayo'y maging magkaibigan.
Itong lihim na pagtingin,
dapat mo pa bang malaman?

Ikaw ay pinapangarap,

Sa tuwina'y hinahanap hanap.

At kapag ikaw na'y nasa harap,

Puso ko'y di mapigil sa pag-alab.

Ikaw nga ay isang bituin,

Na 'di ko na kayang abutin.

Isang pangarap, Isang hiling;

Kailan ba diringgin?

Umaasa ang damdamin,

Mga puso nati'y pagtagpuin.


♥ ♥ ♥


FEB042011

Tungkol sa Isang Batang Nag-iisa

A recovered piece of writing.

Akalain mong may naisulat pala akong ganito nung bata pa 'ko!?

Nakakatawang nakakatuwa. Haha!

The Land Broker Professor

By: Sarah Jane Palma and Marjorie Sta. Ana

Hey! Have you met the “we-have-just-named” superwoman in PUP; the very approachable and down-to-earth professor of Psychology? Well, she is just around the campus sharing her professionalism and personality to the university people.

And who would have thought that this professor is also a big time land broker, huh?

What’s the story behind Maria Corazon Cabigao - Constantino? Yes, no less than her.

A superwoman for her family and students – that is what best describes Ma’am Cora, a Cum Laude when she graduated Industrial Psychology in PUP. Having the passion to teach and share her knowledge to other people, she’s been teaching in PUP since 1983 and to help sustain the needs of her five kids she has been also licensed as a real estate agent or what others call it a Real Estate Broker of Robinson Land since 2001.

Everybody has their own destiny that is planned by God. To be a single mom is not a burden, God have reasons why He gives this kind of responsibility to anybody, and one is to test your faith in Him. But being a single mom is not easy. That’s why she has to come up with two different works and other part time jobs such as e-loading and selling barbeque with her children every Sunday. Teaching in PUP is not enough to sustain the needs of her five kids and to send them in different schools. As she said, “Kahit nahihirapan ako, okay lang, kasi para naman sa family,” - it is really the love for her kids that made her stood still. Having three kids who already finished their degrees in college, two nurses and one who finished Management major in Marketing is not the end of her responsibilities. It’s not yet the end of paying stuffs -- for right now, her nurses still need assistance from her for the examination and trainings. Her youngest is in fourth year high school and the only boy, who’s the eldest wants to take culinary arts.

Selling different kinds of house and lots, condominium units, and raw land is what a real estate broker is doing with the help of his/her agents. Ma’am Cora, a real estate broker acts as the supervisor of her five division managers and twenty agents. She uses different kinds of strategy to reach her goals, some are from the companies like giving flyers, putting up booths when there are special events and gathering and her own like informing her students to ask their parents to invest on her and to be one of her agent. She has a great advantage of being a professor working in a big school with big population on the other side. She can have potential buyers in the form of the family of her students, colleagues, higher officials and her boss as well.

She is inclined to Robinson Land in selling condo units, subdivision and raw lands. To reach a higher number of potential buyers she uses social networking sites like Facebook and Twitter but by the help of her kids and other students. Her family and students have been supportive and helpful to her all the time. In a real estate business you can’t avoid fake and annoying buyers that will measure your patience. For her, “Customer is always right, kahit nagmumura sila, lagi lang akong kalmado.” In that, she handles every situation calmly. She doesn’t forget to explain the rules and regulation to her buyers to make them fully understand and be more aware of their policies.

A quota of 10 million per month is truly a “Wow!” But with a hardworking broker together with her agent and division managers, they are able to reach the required sales per month. But there is always a fluctuating month when they don’t have buyers that results for the deduction of their incentives, bonuses and worst, they will be terminated if they have three consecutive months with zero sales. A 1.5 percent of every successful transaction of her agent is given to her; 1.75 percent for the division managers; and 3.75 percent for the agent who did work to have the buyer. To reward them if they reach their quota, they are awarded with trophies, gift checks, grocery items and special trips to other countries.

The best part of working as a real estate broker for her is meeting different people with different status in life in this country like politicians, landowners, agents and big bosses of different companies. She gains friends because of work, friends that will help her all the way to the top. She was once assigned to Ilocos Region and she needed to do ocular inspection to it from Tarlac to Pagudpod and as a result she experienced travelling around for free.

It is like morning all the time in the real estate. Whether it is day or night, it’s always a “Good Morning!”, because every hour of the day serves as an opening hour for business.

A professor or a broker? A broker! She loves it more! She finds it more enjoying than just killing the whole day in office or having continuous education in classes.

Not just in business, when you put extra effort and good performance, you will immediately reap the fruits of your hard work. And that’s why Ma’am Cora is always at her best! Be ready for the competition if you aim to be a successful real estate agent, like her!

And that doesn’t end there! This woman, successful enough but still dreams to have a business resort and if God permits, she wants it to be built before she retires. It is her perspective to always think positive in any aspect of your life, personal or work. Just do your best and He will do the rest.

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